Snippets of Grief

 I don't know why I don't write to you anymore. Maybe I'm just too tired. Maybe it's because I just feel like.. you're too far away. Maybe I just feel more and more hopeless and alone every day. Or maybe it's all of those.

 I'm struggling. A lot. This is when I would think about texting you and saying, "please come over" or I'd make you go on ovipets with me, or I'd make bad decisions knowing that if I wanted you to, you'd be here in a heartbeat. And now I'm struggling, and I'm trying so hard to be good, and you're not here to call, you damned spleen callet.